{"id":1285,"date":"2019-01-24T20:54:12","date_gmt":"2019-01-24T20:54:12","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/littlemisslesbo.com\/?p=1285"},"modified":"2019-10-31T13:43:39","modified_gmt":"2019-10-31T13:43:39","slug":"all-the-feels","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/littlemisslesbo.com\/?p=1285","title":{"rendered":"All the Feels"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Hey kittens, I&#8217;m settling in ok&#8230; I mean I can walk again (I was out 50 days) I started a lil temp gig that seems like a good fit (the view from my desk is sick&#8217;nin af!) Ya girl Is eating healthy and losing weight, my skin is doing remarkably well, I&#8217;ve cut like 3.5 inches off my hair and even found a product line that works for all of my hair. For the first time in a long time I feel creative! Like my mind is so clear and free to think of different ways to better my life, my business, and my circumstance. For the first time in a while I&#8217;m missing the comfort of having a significant other. It&#8217;s not that I&#8217;m lonely per say , I more or less kinda want a a romantic partner that can make things a pinch more&#8230; like real? Question mark because I&#8217;m not totally sure I want a title. It&#8217;s like I&#8217;m damn near 34- I have a mean game of catch-up to play when it comes to getting on the good foot.<\/p>\n<p>Although I am running late (in my mind) to having the things I want as far as creatively and business wise in addition to my dreams of having a wife and kid(s). I don&#8217;t believe its too late- I understand that God&#8217;s timing is perfect. I&#8217;m also aware that I&#8217;m not really feeling the dating scene here in the Bay Area. I can honestly admit I haven&#8217;t really tired dating here but the pickings are slim. I&#8217;ve met one woman and she&#8217;s great for what she is, fun girl who is non-monogomus who I can have a good time with. I want more out of a situation than just fun and sex though. I have entertained the idea of an out of town suitor but&#8230; distance. I feel like I may be asking for too much&#8230; but is that the problem? In the past I asked for too little and was excepting shit I &nbsp;knew better than to allow.<\/p>\n<div>to an extent I feel like I&#8217;m buffeting the whole romantic thing right now. Physicality here, sweetness here, talk of business here&#8230; &nbsp;I just really want one package! I honestly don&#8217;t think thats too much to ask. Don&#8217;t get me wrong, I&#8217;m not a player I&#8217;m single AF and I&#8217;m hardly playing the field- I just move how I want in this present time. Theres no one who should have any hurt feelings. I just know once I shake this weight and really start flourishing a whole bunch of &#8220;hey big head&#8221; and &#8220;I miss you&#8221; messages finna pop up and I AM NOT HERE FOR THAT BULLSHIT.<\/div>\n<div>Maybe I&#8217;m over thinking this&#8230; I should probably chill. Am I having a&nbsp;<em>existential crisis? Do I not know what I want? I&#8217;ve&nbsp;literally never felt this way&#8230; I&#8217;m somehow levelheaded, creative, and somewhere in the back of my mind I keep hearing Jay-Z &#8220;Only thing missing is a MRS&#8221;. Lemme finish getting me together-maybe I&nbsp;won&#8217;t even have time for theses feelings.<\/em><\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<p><iframe loading=\"lazy\" width=\"560\" height=\"315\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/_R2LiwXtuLQ\" frameborder=\"0\" allow=\"accelerometer; autoplay; encrypted-media; gyroscope; picture-in-picture\" allowfullscreen=\"\"><\/iframe><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Hey kittens, I&#8217;m settling in ok&#8230; I mean I can walk again (I was out 50 days) I started a lil temp gig that seems like a good fit (the view from my desk is sick&#8217;nin af!) Ya girl Is eating healthy and losing weight, my skin is doing remarkably well, I&#8217;ve cut like 3.5 inches off my hair and even found a product line that works for all of my hair. For the first time in a long time I feel creative! Like my mind is so clear and free to think of different ways to better my life, my business, and my circumstance. For the first time in a while I&#8217;m missing the comfort of having a significant other. It&#8217;s not that I&#8217;m lonely per say , I more or less kinda want a a romantic partner that can make things a pinch more&#8230; like real? Question mark because I&#8217;m not totally sure I want a title. It&#8217;s like I&#8217;m damn near 34- I have a mean game of catch-up to play when it comes to getting on the good foot. Although I am running late (in my mind) to having the things I want as far as creatively and business wise in addition to my dreams of having a wife and kid(s). I don&#8217;t believe its too late- I understand that God&#8217;s timing is perfect. I&#8217;m also aware that I&#8217;m not really feeling the dating scene here in the Bay Area. I can honestly admit I haven&#8217;t really tired dating here but the pickings are slim. I&#8217;ve met one woman and she&#8217;s great for what she is, fun girl who is non-monogomus who I can have a good time with. I want more out of a situation than just fun and sex though. I have entertained the idea of an out of town suitor but&#8230; distance. I feel like I may be asking for too much&#8230; but is that the problem? In the past I asked for too little and was excepting shit I &nbsp;knew better than to allow. to an extent I feel like I&#8217;m buffeting the whole romantic thing right now. Physicality here, sweetness here, talk of business here&#8230; &nbsp;I just really want one package! I honestly don&#8217;t think thats too much to ask. Don&#8217;t get me wrong, I&#8217;m not a player I&#8217;m single AF and I&#8217;m hardly playing the field- I just move how I want in this present time. Theres no one who should have any hurt feelings. I just know once I shake this weight and really start flourishing a whole bunch of &#8220;hey big head&#8221; and &#8220;I miss you&#8221; messages finna pop up and I AM NOT HERE FOR THAT BULLSHIT. Maybe I&#8217;m over thinking this&#8230; I should probably chill. Am I having a&nbsp;existential crisis? Do I not know what I want? I&#8217;ve&nbsp;literally never felt this way&#8230; I&#8217;m somehow levelheaded, creative, and somewhere in the back of my mind I keep hearing Jay-Z &#8220;Only thing missing is a MRS&#8221;. Lemme finish getting me together-maybe I&nbsp;won&#8217;t even have time for theses feelings.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":1287,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2},"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[3],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1285","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-dating"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/littlemisslesbo.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/01\/0-1.jpeg","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p4HIFu-kJ","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/littlemisslesbo.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1285","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/littlemisslesbo.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/littlemisslesbo.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/littlemisslesbo.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/littlemisslesbo.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1285"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"https:\/\/littlemisslesbo.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1285\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1372,"href":"https:\/\/littlemisslesbo.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1285\/revisions\/1372"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/littlemisslesbo.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/1287"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/littlemisslesbo.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1285"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/littlemisslesbo.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1285"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/littlemisslesbo.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1285"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}