I had to wait a while to write this one y\u2019all\u2026. I don\u2019t even know where to start.I met this woman in the midst of early covid shut down. I mean so early in the shut down that people with sense weren\u2019t really meeting up with strangers\u2026. Well I wasn\u2019t! Little Miss Sunshine was cool, we\u2019d get on FaceTime and smoke and drink have us a grand ole time. We talked for like month and a half and a half before she got weird on me and was like \u201cI can\u2019t talk to you anymore\u201d. Now, y\u2019all know I\u2019m real Fantasia to the bullshit so I allowed little Mama the space to \u201cfree herself. I would wonder about her from time to time but I unfriended her on socials and went on about my life. Sure, I\u2019d notice that she\u2019d like my IG post from time to time but never read too much into it because\u2026 social media.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Fast forward like 3.5 years and I get a friend request from guess who\u2026 JUST GUESS! I swiftly approve her request because I just wanted to know how she was doing and I mean she was a cool lil buddy. She divulged to me that her \u201cjust a friend\u201d from her master\u2019s program evolved into a three year relationship that had sadly recently ended. DING DONG! Miss girl couldn\u2019t talk to me anymore because she was developing feelings for her friend. A fact she denies to this day; but I be knowing.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
We had fun we just kicked it a lot, I helped her look for a new place because she had to vacate her previous living arrangement due to her recent break-up. I call her Sunshine because her despite her having sadness in her eyes it was like she brought sunshine into my life through her laid back demeanor and low-key lifestyle. Shit was fun with her. Again, Y\u2019all know me\u2026 I got too involved; our Dogs had playdates, I was cooking for her,I consoled her on tough days no matter the the issue (even if it was her ex). I was far more understanding than I should have been; but I was familiar with how she was feeling and I knew when I was going through I wish I had a Down Ass Bitch in my corner. I didn\u2019t choose DAB life it chose me\u2026 I could never be a JAB.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Things were going well, I was learning about sports from her, Hamlet finally had a dog friend she was a refreshing change from last summers fuckery\u2026 or so I thought. She called me on FaceTime red faced and crying about the friend turned lover turned ex talking about \u201cI miss my relationship\u201d Now, because I still consider this woman a friend I will not spill her tea. But missing Hamburger Helper while eating a bone-in rib eye is WILD TO ME! But again I\u2019m Fantasia to the bullshit\u2026 You don\u2019t want me? Then don\u2019t talk to me!<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I played like I was cool but my feelings were hurt\u2026 Like real bad, I know I\u2019d sworn off the ladies many times before but I hadn\u2019t had my feeling hurt like this in a long while. Like the ex isn\u2019t a nice person, she\u2019s unfaithful and a liar, she\u2019s not better looking than me and let Little Miss Sunshine tell it she couldn\u2019t cook or fuck like me\u2026. So what was it? Instead of wondering what it was I just powered through life majorly depressed and frankly on some \u201cfuck a bitch shit\u201d word to B.I.G. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Enter Little Miss Zodiac <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Sunshine if you read this I pray your mind is open enough to receive what I’ve shared here-there was never really a convenient time for me to share this with you maybe this song will help.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
My feelings are best expressed through song<\/p>\n\n\n\n