{"id":768,"date":"2016-02-19T13:13:17","date_gmt":"2016-02-19T13:13:17","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/littlemisslesbo.com\/?p=768"},"modified":"2016-02-19T15:33:44","modified_gmt":"2016-02-19T15:33:44","slug":"down-the-rabbit-hole","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/littlemisslesbo.com\/?p=768","title":{"rendered":"Down the Rabbit Hole"},"content":{"rendered":"

I hardly ever remember the moment I fell in love- I do, however, always remember when I fell out of love. Not only do I remember when I fell out of love I also remember what I was wearing, where I was, what the air smelled like, the feeling of blood rushing to my face, the utter heart break, despair, sense of panic and anxiety. The strange thing about it is I have a strange habit of falling and staying in love long after the break up.
\nLittle Miss Lesson Learned (LMLL) and I had been broken up for nearly 3.5 years when I finally fell out of love with her. The shit hurt more than our actual break up. I no longer have a shred of respect for her and that\u2019s fine- cause I doubt she cares. I\u2019m sensitive and I take all relationships seriously. DAB (Down Ass Bitch) is and always and will be greater than JAB (just a bitch) and a DAB can be moved to JAB, yet, a JAB will NEVER become a DAB (no promotions after demotions). When I fell out of love with LMLL it was a randomly warm day for December in Atlanta. It smelled like pizza (cause of where I was) my mouth was suddenly filled with the taste of every lie she had ever fed me (yes they have a taste) before, during and after our relationship, it felt like a battering ram knocked me down. The shock was only comparable to the first time she hit me in my face.
\nLittle Miss Wrong Timing (LMWT) and I had been broken up for nearly 5 years when she laid some news on me that toppled her from her petal stool causing me to fall smooth out of love with her. Oddly enough I had no clue I was still In love with her while dealing with LMLL (I know-SHITTY but that was before I learned to heal and deal\u2026) What I can say is that LMWT never ever lied about the heavy news and it was so long ago It hurt just a tiny bit- like \u201chey man you stepped on my foot!\u201d It smelled like lavender and vanilla (my plug in), I tasted confusion (like a jelly bean that could be key lime pie but instead was booger flavored)- but I was ok. 
\nFalling out of love is the pits. For me falling out of love is much like when Alice falls down the rabbit hole in Alice in Wonderland. There\u2019s a whole bunch of useful shit but when you have no use for it. I\u2019m done talking about the past. I\u2019m in a happy space with a happy woman.
\nMy feelings are better expressed through song (sorta) The visual is more relateable.
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